Tonight, we did our own thing for dinner. It's rare when that happens, but tonight was one of those nights. I had Black Bean and Tofu Enchiladas. Spicy, but good.
I am really tired today. I've been working alot. In fact, I should technically be working right now. Does blogging count as work? I'm not sure. lol. It's hard to try to do it all. There's two sides of my writing life. The side that brings in money (required), and the side that we believe will bring in future money, though it's not guaranteed (also kinda required, for my sanity). Then, there's having a hubby and a future baby, and friends, and and and...
What I'm trying to say is that I want the whole enchilada. Is that even attainable?
I already know this will be ramblings, but... My thoughts are that nobody can have everything. For example, I've always wanted to live abroad, live the nomad lifestyle, drift from a Peruvian beach bungalow to a cozy cabin in the Rockies, publishing poetry for pennies. It's such a romanticized writer kind of life, the kind of stuff that makes great party conversation, but probably really SUCKS on a regular Tuesday. I used to sit at my corporate marketing job and imagine just such a life. Slave to no man, I'd think. Ya right. We're all working for somebody, right?
The reality is that, that kind of life is just not in my lifestyle lexicon. It's for someone else who wants it more. I think that's the key... trying to figure out what you want most, more than the other stuff. I think I've done this naturally in my life, discarding the stuff that didn't fit into that "Most" category. Sometimes I'd feel guilty about it, or worse, I'd feel a sense of failure. I think it's just part of life.
One of those things I've noticed has tapered is my desire to hit the gym seven days a week as hard as I can. I want to go to the gym alot, but it doesn't trump my writing or my hubby. It's a priority, but I don't want it most. Just alot, and that's different from most. Semantics? Yes. But, it's also true.
You might think I sound depressed. I'm not! Just waxing philosophical. Mostly, I've come to realize that if I'm going to write this blog, I need to just be who I am. I love to cook, I love to write about food, but I also just love to write.
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