Thursday, June 17, 2010

Life is a Coin Toss


You all know how often I tell you that life is beautiful.

Well... the truth is there is a flip side to every thing. Life is beautiful, yes, but it is also terribly, terrible tragic sometimes.

My friend Nathan died yesterday morning in his sleep. I don't know why, and it doesn't make sense.

When I found out yesterday, I was devastated. More so that I would have even thought. We were friends mostly during my Sophomore-Junior years of school. And, now, when I look back, I realize how much of an influence he and other friends of that era had on my life. Funny how you don't appreciate things like that until it's too late. Recently, we caught up again on facebook, and we emailed back and forth. His last email to me was telling me what a genuine friend I'd always been to him. I wish I had said something more. That's always how it goes, though.

He will be buried on Sunday, father's day. I can't stand to think of his daughter growing up knowing that her father was buried on father's day.

Last night, I felt just awful. Ryan came home, and though we skipped our Wednesday run, we still managed to do the shoulders and back CD of P90X. We haven't missed a day yet. He said I'd feel better afterwards, and he was right, of course.

Then, we ordered pizza and watched a funny movie. It was Get Smart. Very cute.





This is the box. I didn't think to take a pic of the pizza. It was sausage and yum.

Today, I've mostly been nursing a cup of coffee and trying to catch up on the work I couldn't seem to concentrate on yesterday.


Now, I'm trying to remind myself to be thankful for the time I had not just with Nathan, but with all the friends that have meant so much to me in my life. There are so, so many good people and things to appreciate. I forget sometimes, all caught up in things that really, probably don't matter.

I hope I'm not too depressing here. I just wanted to check in and say that I'm still here. Chugging along. I actually have alot of cool things happening blog-wise that I'll be updating you on very soon.

Be well, friends. xoxo


3 comments:

  1. Those are the same thoughts I had about the funeral being on Father's Day. Ugh...what a day yesterday. I finally just went home and took a nap. I called Amy this morning but it was a fun phone call full of sentences like 'do you remember the time we did that?' and 'Nathan and I once...' and etc :) You get the picture. Just focus on that.

    It was a fun time...no responsibilities back then. Full of drama but lots of life lessons too.

    Don't worry about saying something more...you always say exactly the right thing. You are a very genuine true friend and we are all very lucky for having you in our lives :)

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